i dont live for other ple, i dont live solely to make other people feel comfortable- especially those with the bibles tightly clenched- fucking hypocrites- i tell them - motherfucker dont judge me-
they ask me why i'm swearing.
i tell them judge aint a swear word, but they still aint answered my question.
i am sick and tired of smug little christians/non christians and much worse- nouveau-christians judging me and looking at me as if i am doing something wrong-
and worse still, as if i am doing something wrong to them.
i'm not gay because i choose to be gay- i'm gay whether i like it or not, fuck, whether they like it or not, whether you like it or not. thats my sexuality- i cannot keep lying and pretending that i'm straight or at least 'going through a phase' when i know that this is NOT going to go away.
being gay is not a choice i woke up one sunny day and made, but actually BEING lesbian outwardly is a choice, a choice i was forced to make because another day of pretending i like jesse metcaffe/brad pitt/morris chestnut and find them ooh so juicy- was going to kill me.
i'm sorry world/zimz/h-town/Ar.school/ family, and friends- this is who i am.
dont fucking treat me like a criminal just because i finally had the guts to be myself. give me a pat on the back for having the courage to face all this pressure, the whispers, the rumours, the stares, the EVERYTHING-
rather, if you cant do that- give me a break.