So, I have this huge problem. Huge pain in the ass problem. I'm wicked lonely. I have this whole summer ahead of me, but no one to spend it with. Don't get me wrong, I have friends...but none of them live near me. I bus out to school in another town, and so do all of my buds...just not from the same town that I live in. I used to have friends who lived here in Concord, but we ended up going to different schools and lost touch. Horrid, but I don't think that I can get in touch with them anymore. We've all gone such different ways, and live such different lives now that I wouldn't know what to say to them. Plus, they remind me of so many things that I don't have anymore, don't want to have, it's painful. I don't want that, I don't think I can deal with it without cutting...and I don't want to do that. Umm, I was gonna go to this queer youth group thing on Thurs, but I'm not sure if it's happening. My councelor goes to the church where it takes place, and she said that it might've stopped happening. I'm going to call the church, but I'm not sure...just really lonely. Even if I am introverted, being alone and hanging out with my family is not going to cut it for a social life.