WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!! for the love of christ. im not a bad person and im not rude. im nice and easy to talk to and im not that bad looking so why is it that no one gives a shit about me. i know that sometimes i have trouble opening up to people, but even when i do i dont mean shit to them. why is that. is it my fate to be alone my whole life. thats what i feel like. i fall for people who dont care about me. why am i not good enough to people. i pour my heart out and i feel like i dont get anywhere. i feel so lost. its amazing to me how you can talk and talk to someone. feel like you could just sit and listen to them forever. listen to there thoughts and ideas. listen to there dreams and watch them talk to you. but you dont mean anything to them. all i want is someone to talk to and when i thought i found her i feel duped and stupid for telling her so much things about me. can i go and not get hurt. damn it im sooo angry. frustrated and... it doesnt matter anymore. i need some time. im going to get off this computer take some days off and find what im looking for.