Doubts

osh555's picture

Recently I don't know why but I've been begining to doubt how much I love my girlfriend. It's just been really difficult between us because of it. I havn't told her about my doubts but she keeps asking me what's wrong. Things just don't feel the same as when we were frist going out. Am I out of love with her? or has the infatuation just wornoff? Should I break up with her? That could be difficult because she just came down to stay with me for the summer. I really don't want to break up with her. I really do love her alot but in-love? I don't know. It could just be my own mental state interfearing too. I've been super depressed and unsatisfied and disillusioned with my life.

It's strange as soon as I wrote that I realized how silly this is. I do love her. I just get scared that she's going to get tired of me soon. and realized what a selfish, dramatic, full of crap insecure wannabe I am. I wish I was more confident.

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FlyflewAway's picture

don't wait till the well is dry before u get the water

ENJOY IT while its still there - seems to me your spending so much time worrying that you don't realize how great this is just live it up and see where it takes you instead of looking towards the future live life in the moment that way you won't regret about having doubts or saying i should have done this or that, i sound stupid but im guessing most people would tell u the same thing Its the summer time so WHAT ARE U DOING IN HERE!!! GO SUNBURN WITH UR GIRL

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to, I'll do what I got to
The truth...is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt - Tbs

osh555's picture

Thanks. I know all the things

Thanks. I know all the things you said. It never really sinks in until you've been yelled by a complete stranger...I'm trying....

your face crept
into that space
between my reflex and my resolve
kinda like the crevice you don’t notice
til it takes down the damn wall.
~~ alix olson- checking my pulse