just a little release

FlameFish08's picture

do you ever have those times in your life when you just don't know what you're feeling? like there are so many things going on in your life, yet nothing actually going on at the time? like you could be doing any of the various things you have to do, but you're not? thats where i find myself right now. sitting in this room with no light on, switching between each of the sounds fall out boy, sublime, and various other artists, all of whom im pretty sure are male. basically, i just don't know what to feel right now. i cant label my mood. i think that i just have so many emotions right now there are just too many to process, which leaves me in a kind of numb state of being. i guess the swirling of anger, fatigue, dissappointment, guilt and pressure just randomly hit me. the main topic on my mind at the moment is the fact that im sick of being lonely. i really want to meet some gay people in my town, i feel so isolated sometimes. and then theres the fact that i have put way too many things off in my life. i just cant seem to find any motivation sometimes. even in sports, and people know me for playing sports. this post was more of a release for me to try to process myself right now. i usually just keep everything inside me, im one of those people that does that often. i dont usually outlet my feelings that often. ah, well this was a somewhat helpful release.

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Snowed_in1014's picture

omg thats so weird...thats ex

omg thats so weird...thats exactly how i feel right now. And i'm also listening to fall out boy..................odd. anywho

armadillo's picture

Maybe it's the music

I'll admit that my mood is subject to change with music. I believe that it has the ability to toy with your soul, if you allow it. For instance, there's some songs that make me feel...umm...randy...then there's some songs that make me feel depressed and lonely, it just might help you understand. Plus, listening to the same songs from sublime over and over can make you feel like dying too...not that it's not good music.

w8tin4life's picture

u got me always k cutie?

u got me always k cutie?

Who would give a law to lovers? Love is unto itself a higher law. ~Boethius, The Consolation of Philosophy, A.D. 524

QuakerOats's picture

I think it happens to a lot o

I think it happens to a lot of us. And we live. Good luck!

Love one another--God Love yourselves, too, everyone!

greta's picture

this summer i've felt like th

this summer i've felt like that pretty often. there aren't that many gay people in my town and i keep feeling...that void (if you could call it that) but then i usually bounce back.