Just...bad form....

osh555's picture

Okay here's the deal:

So, Last night I found out that Candace, one of my closest friends, is "in love" with my girlfriend, Sarah. She told Sarah a few weeks ago when she first came down. Since then There have been letters of proclaimed affection and of how back when I apparently stole Sarah from her she wished she had fought harder. I thought that she was past Sarah but no. That was the impression she gave me atleast. I'm so pissed off at her right now but I'm playing nice for Sarah's sake. I mean I had no idea that all this time when I would go to her upset over something having to do with Sarah she had these feelings in the back of her mind. I feel so lied too. And why now? Why the fuck now? SHE'S MY FRIEND! Can she atleast wait until Sarah isn't with me? It's just bad form! Bad FUCKING form! I'm so sick of having to deal with other people trying to woo Sarah behind my back. Can't I just enjoy having her without the Annes (the ex who's still obsessed and Sarah cheated on me with....strange circumstances supposedly) and Candaces of the world slithering in the grass. And you know what else? She and Sarah are leaving for MA on WED! (Which is another thing which is upsetting me, I thought I had atleast another week.) They'll be up in MA for like 3 weeks while I'm here alone in Roanoke. Sarah really wants me to come up but I can't afford it....

I want to vomit I'm so upset. Last night I pretty much had a depression fit again. I just sunk and sunk and then hit bottom with the crying and the urges to just physically hurt myself. Sarah held me through it though. Sarah tells me I have nothing to worry about. She does have a connection with Candace but it's not in a physical way. She's doing her best to reassure me. I don't know....I'm fighting the urge to snap and be the protective bitchy girlfriend and kick Candace's ass. I admitted that to Sarah and she said that in one of Candace's letter she said that she would not back down to what ever I brought...not that she could take me....I'm a much better fighter than she is...

Since Sarah shared all this with me willingly I feel as though I owe it to her to not become a visible wreck over this. But I'm still really upset....especially because I feel as though that Sarah may be leading Candace on alittle in order to keep her options open if this relationship fails....she doesn't even realize she's doing it....it just hurts because Sarah told me she was in love with me but I don't know anymore....She does love me I know that...it's just the backtracking on the in love statement that's making me alittle insecure....

Any advice would be appreciated.....

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Eegriaga's picture

omg im so sry.... hmmm if she

omg im so sry.... hmmm if she really is in love with you she wont do anything with your "friend".... i guess if she does its not worth it and you should move on sry my advice is terrible

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