My Hell

FearNotTheQueer's picture

I got yelled at today... always being yelled at for the way I am fucking up my mothers life... DONT TELL PEOPLE YOUR A LESBIAN! Thats all SHE says to me now... I wish it wasnt summer or that I promised C.C. I wouldnt do it anymore... I want to cut... I want to see the blood... MY BLOOD. I'm not alive... I am a hologram... you can see me but not touch... I go unnoticed until someone wants something... Like Kelsey.. Her and Jacqui... When will Jacqui tell Kelsey she's straight? I dont want to hear it anymore... I cant even see C.C. I hate Georgia and the 65 miles that separate us when she's home... I want to see her again... I want to smile for a reason... not just to avoid a slap from my mother... I must fake this happy... I must be cured of my gay-ness... I want to leave in the worst possible way... This war in my head... The pain in my heart...

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QuakerOats's picture

Please don't cut yourself. F

Please don't cut yourself. Feel our love. WE LOVE YOU. ALL OF US WHO DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU.
Love one another--God Love yourselves, too, everyone!

Eegriaga's picture

We care!

well im sry
but please dont cut, as weird as this sounds we all care about you!
we are all here to listen to you!
and i live in georgia too! i live in north fulton sandy springs area

"Being Republican and gay is like being gay with a bad haircut!"

FlameFish08's picture

repeat

WE DO CARE AND WE DO LOVE YOU! DO NOT CUT! in the end, it will only bring more pain...