Hi you guys.
Something really freaky happened, and she wants it to be a secret, so I can't tell my regular friends. So I'm going to tell all of you.
I accidently slept with one of my best friends.
I know that sounds ridiculous, but I don't know how else to put it.
I absolutely never saw this coming. I am not (and have never been) interested in her like that. I'm not attratced to her. And she's straight.
A few days ago, she was staying the night at my house. We were lying in my bed, talking, and then, suddenly, we were kissing. And then we were doing more than kissing.
It's probably the strangest thing that's ever happened to me.
Eventually she just sort of said, "Okay," and I climbed off of her and sort of hid in one corner of my bed. Her saying that broke the spell and I thought I was going to throw up. I managed not to totally panic, but it was pretty freaky.
I continue not to be romantically interested in her. I don't feel too weird about it now, but yesterday I was really sick over it.
I don't know how she feels. I want us to just go on being friends like before, but I don't know if that's possible.
She isn't returning my phone calls.
On the bright side, I'm definitely, definitely gay.