What I cant say

FearNotTheQueer's picture

I'm drunk... My arm is bleeding... its always bleeding now... I sat in the laundry room again with the bleach and the pills... I wanted to so badly... I wanted to end it... I took a pill and was knocked out for hours... I'm sorry... I let you down... I always do in the end... Why dont you leave me... Leave me... I want to stop letting you down... But I cant... I cant stop... I always will... My beautiful one... I cant do it anymore... I love you... I want to stop... I want to make you happy... I want to see that smile... But I cant... I'm not strong enough... I'm weak... I'm nothing... I can never say this to you... I'm sorry...

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

Hard to comment, since this post is all aftermath and not build-up.

The important thing is for you to get help through whatever issues are going on. Get a shrink, call a hotline, do something. Call friends.

If you really hate Republicans, as you said in a prior post, don't become a statistic and let them win. Get mad, own up to your life, and fight on.