ive always been the type to not need a relationship. i dont understand why people rush to get married. why people HAVE to get married.
but i was in the car today.. and a line from a song said
"the book of love, we're all to young to know whats in it"
and it was an older guy singing. and so i was thinking well if he is too young.. who would be old? and I realized that he meant youn in love. and i got this whole metaphor going in my mind of how when people first get married they are like babies and then they grow up with each other.. and suddenly i dont know. it hit me that thats what i wanted. it was like a mental image of me in a white dress flashed in my head. and.. i dont know. but like i was thinking aobut marriage to a guy. but.. i like girls.. so that confused me as well.
I guess deep down i still feel im SUPPOSED to marry a guy.. or i dont know. but for now i do know that i want someone to grow up with.