Hey everyone! I haven't posted an entry here in a long time, but I felt like writing one today.
See, I kind of need some help. I haven't decided where I will be going to school in, like, less than a month. I got invited to go to Walnut Hill School to major in creative writing, and so now I'm deciding between regular public high school and WHS. I've been mulling over this for over a month, but now I really have to decide.
I'm not deciding based on academics. My public school offers good academics, though the students are likely less interested in the classes than students at WHS. I am a good student and I work hard. There are some logistics I am worried about if I did WHS--the regular school day is from eight to two, and then one's major meets for three more hours afterwards. Since I'm majoring in writing, that's a nine-hour day of academic classes. And a lot of homework. Also, I want to be able to do music, art, and theatre, but my time will be much more limited due to the intensity of the courses and my long carpool each day. The school doesn't accomodate a variety of interests in its curriculum. Of course, public school has its problems, too--namely I wouldn't get any writing instruction, would have to take gym instead of yoga, and would not have good college counseling.
Mostly, though, I'm worried about the social aspect of school. At public school, I'm "the nice, quiet, smart girl." I've been that since kindergarten. Everyone has known everyone since forever, and it's hard to shift yourself out of those expectations and into who you really are when it's such an ingrained habit to act how people expect. I have a few friends at school--no really close ones--and a lot of acquaintences. This is due to me shutting into myself last year. Despite my increased confidence and sense of self over this summer, I'm afraid of losing it all when I go back to school. This could happen at Walnut Hill, too. But at least I would have a clean slate at WHS, and more people with common interests.
For some reason, my gut feeling has been to go back to public school, though I have been miserable there. I think it's some sort of loyalty thing, and wanting to overcome the problems I've made for myself there. But I don't know if I can, at least not right now.
Walnut Hill is a more logical choice socially, though I would only go there one year, and would have to finish my senior year at public school or get a GED. I'm not sure if I want to write that much--it would be difficult assignments and a lot of thinking about writing for a year. Though I know I would get better, I'm not sure if I'm in love with creative writing. It's a huge commitment if I don't want to be there.
I fell in love with another school, The Cambridge School of Weston, but they don't have any space left. They offer a variety in the arts, a shorter commute, and a lot of interesting courses (including one in Gay and Lesbian literature :p). I sent in an application anyway, but they said that 11th grade is overcrowded, so they wouldn't let me in anyway if someone dropped out. It's kind of clouding my perspective on WHS versus public. Sigh.
Anyway, that's what I'm dealing with now. I need to request more financial aid for WHS by tomorrow if I want to go. I still don't know. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.