I had school today; and I think it's funny how I had forgotten what school really means. It means going to classes with kids who either ignore me, hate me, or misunderstand me, and having teachers who don't even have time to get that personal. I had forgotten how it makes me feel like I'm nobody, and after a whole summer of just Nick, and being loved by him, it was kind of a shock to go to this place where no one even tries to love me. It's not even that I'm lonely, it's that people don't even seem to know that I'm really there, they seem to think right through my words. And it seems like so many people are either whispering about my queerness, or telling me about how I'm "a distgusting dyke," and that i will "burn in hell for my sins." sometimes they even play nasty little tricks on me; i've already sat on tacks twice and it's only the second day, and i've had tons of pencils chucked at me, and other stuff as well. I hate school, i love learning, but i fucking hate school. i wish that i could be with nick all day and know that he loves me instead of going to that hell-hole. i'm not sure what i'll do, except hope that it gets better.