quitting smoking - not fun

TeeAhr1's picture

Not even a little. This is my second day, so far I have had two cigarettes in those two days. Not a perfect record, but still, I think, reasdon enough to be proud of myself. Usually I'll have two cigarettes within an hour and a half of getting out of bed, so two in 36 hours is pretty close to a miracle.

I've got this on-again, off-again headache, I can't seem to eat enough to not be hungry an hour later. I've been monsterously cranky. I couldn't throw a bowling ball straight last night to save my ass. I've gone through a lot of weed, and I'm going to go through a lot more. And to put the poo icing on this shit cake, they were giving away *free cigarettes* at my convienience store yesterday. Yeah, I was a joy to be around, you bet your ass. But I didn't take them, and that's all that matters at the end of the day. It's just one more obstacle to overcome, and every little thing that makes this harder is one more reason for me to stay tough. It's mostly an ego thing, you know. I just can't stand the idea of being subservient to something, and I am a slave to the cigarettes. So paradoxally, every stupid thing like the damn free packs of cigarettes yesterday is a little more motivation for me. If I can refuse free cigarettes, then I can damn well ride this out, I think. I mean, how much worse could it get?

Wish me luck, guys n girlz.

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Jazzer's picture

Good luck!

Having stopping drinking over a month ago, I understand what it's like to give something up you really enjoy. The best thing that I can offer is to keep yourself very occupied so you don't have a chance to think about it. Do things you like. It doesn't make it 100% better, but it helps.

Michael

Some people's kids...I tell ya!

Daisy's picture

That sounds really awful... G

That sounds really awful... Good luck!

Did they love you or what?

rowie's picture

good luck, im sure you can do

good luck, im sure you can do it!

**you must be the change you wish to see in the world**

flushd's picture

i feel your pain

I know it's rough. I'm going through the same thing.
I used to smoke over a pack a day.
Sometimes I just scream I get so frustrated.
It'll get better - keep it up! You sound so motivated.
Have you tried citrus fruits?
Don't ask why, but for some reason they really help me. My bod just
aches for them when I need a cig.
best luck