Acorn86's picture

so today I'm kind of mad. when I went to school I met this friend and we really hit it off and we became really really close (in an non romatic way) (even though I think I may like her...which could be the root of my problem). she helped me through a really rough time, totally standing by me, making me laugh when I could use it and listening. I helped her out too, we were like best buds. she decided to transfer schools, which is fine because I want her to be happy and she wasn't really at our school. I'm disappointed because she won't be at school, but I want her to be happy.
Ok, so the thing is...I've hardly heard from her all summer. An email here, talking online every once in a while...but nothing major. she lives close to me...she lives in the city and I live in a suburb of the city, but i havent seen her since may. the last time i talked to her was the beginning of june. she says shes been busy and i have too. but i feel like if she really wanted to be friends with me...we'd figure out a way to talk and a way to see each other. she went on vacation for three weeks...she's been back for four days now and i havent heard from her. maybe im being weird, but i think i would call/email someone who i regarded as a close friend after i got back from a vacation.
I told her before she left that i felt like she didn't want to talk to me anymore. she said that was silly and that if she were my friend why wouldn't she want to talk to me. but then she doesn't return phone calls i make to her and everytime i suggest we do something...she's busy or something comes up and she never suggests doing anything. its just really frustrating because i feel like i had this great friendship..and now i lost it and i dont even know how the hell or why it happened.
I said before that i might have hade feelings for her, but shes straight...i would never EVER tell her that i had feelings for her..i feel like that would be totally unfair and putting her in a really uncomfortable position, plus she has a boyfriend. she knows im gay, shes one of the first people at school i told, and shes totally fine with much so that we can joke about thinking each other is hot, ect. so i dont think that could be the reason she doesn't talk to me anymore.
I feel like maybe it might be an out of sight out of mind thing. its not like school where i'm around, so she doesn't think to call or email me. but that sucks. esp. since she's going to a different school next year.
I know i probably need to move on and just take it easy and forget about it and when and if she decided to contact me..she will.
it just makes me sad. so i dunno. i dont know what to think, or what to expect. i think maybe it is so hard for me because i do/did have feelings for her, but at the same really sucks to lose a friendship like that. blah. so i have no idea. just a crappy situation i guess. goober.


KieBem81's picture

oddly familiar

maybe you havent lost her as a friend- because even though you two arent in contact with each other or will be as much anymore she still considers herself your friend- bah it seems over summer breaks unless you are joined at the hip one doesnt hear much from college kids...most of my friends like you said i have talked to a bit and what not but its a different world different time and well its not the same as being on campus and constantly seeing i doubt its because of you or anything it is just the circumstances - good luck :)

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escape_velocity's picture

That sucks. I can relate to t

That sucks. I can relate to that, though. It is difficult to stay in touch, and sometimes it doesn't mean that the person thinks any less of you, you know? I fell out of touch with 90% of my high school friends, but it doesn't mean I loved them any less. It just happens sometimes. Also, I have a friend like yours who lives in a suburb of my city, so we could have gotten together many a time, but it just didn't happen. I know once we get back on campus we'll be just as close as before, despite the fact that we saw each other once this whole summer. I understand the it's different with your friend, though, since she won't be coming back. It sounds like you have really done all you can in terms of keeping things going between you two. Maybe she will come to her senses soon. :)


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zoe rose's picture

goober hahahaha. life i


life is hell.
enjoy it while you can.

'...people are, by nature, sad
so be it then, it isnt all that bad'
~from a russian poet whose name i cant pronounce, nor remember...

Cheyennelovesu15's picture

goober hehe.. my friend used

goober hehe.. my friend used to call a guys thing a goober hahaha.
Sorry..Ok..yeah it sounds like everything is really weired between you two right now. That happend with 3 of my best friends actually. We all arent friends anymore..but they all know I am maybe thats why. I donno really. Life just sucks ya lose people you really care about. I have lost alot of people I care about ~tear~.


FlyflewAway's picture

i know how u feel

the day before i left for my vacation i tried calling this girl that i started to get feelings for doing the last month of school but of course she was straight and i felt like sometimes she was sending me mixed signals but after a month of being away and still on vacation she finally called and we text each other once in a while but i guess it makes me feel better to know that i don't have to force her to hang out with me because she wants too and maybe u should just get over her and if it was ment to be she'll hit u up and you can see what happens from there =]

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to, I'll do what I got to
The you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt - Tbs