Today was probably one of the best/worst days ever- and I'll tell you why. First of all, the back story:
I am crushing on a straight girl 'Bex' and she's such a damn flirt that I end up with butterflies in my stomach whenever I chat to her. She doesn't know my feelings, and she doesn't know I'm gay. so I just try and act cool and flirt back- as if I'm just having a laugh.
Today, for some reason, I've been feeling horny all day. I was making up a slashy story in my head and got a lot more carried away with the details than usual. So with some graphic images fresh in my mind, it was even harder than usual to keep up a breezy chat with Becky without wanting to grab her and have my wicked way with her :p
I still don't know how I managed through the whole day, let alone in Maths class where she sat barely a foot away and said she was glad I had sat nearby "becuase it meant we could hold hands," then she started her flirting routine again and I was in heaven. I'd have been quite happy to sit there just joking around, but the wonders of number powers had to be discovered.
Now the feeling has completely gone- maybe I can revive it tonight ;-)