Okay, so I need some serious help. I'm 19, and I'm just now questioning my sexuality. I've always been reclusive, and throughout High School, I only dated boys a few times, and only when I had to out of social pressure. The only thing I'm sure about is that I'm not interested in men. But the thing is, I always assumed that it would be one or the other: if I wasn't interested in men, I would be interested in women, it would be that easy. But it's not. I told myself most of my life that I would just get over my disinterest in men eventually. Eventually, I convinced myself, I'd learn to deal with being in a relationship with a man. But I can't. Recently, I've started to long for a relationship with a woman. I want a woman who's closer than a friend or roommate, but I'm still not "turned on" by women in the way that I'd expect to be, if I were truly gay. How is it for other women? I expected the first sign to be a sexual attraction to women. It's not. I'm emotionally attracted to women, intellectually attracted to women, but not really sexually. I feel like I'm not quite gay enough to be gay, and certainly not straight enough to be straight, and simply not sexual enough to be bi. I feel so alone! On top of all that, I've been through depression, suicidal thoughts, cutting, extreme seclusion, crippling despair, the list goes on. Help!