hi, i'm back

bulldyke's picture

hey everyone. i'm back. remember me? bulldyke, the one with the crazy posts about why it's good to be gay. i'm back from Hell. i've been REALLY depressed, and i've been suicidal for 4 months, and i started cutting, and i'm just not doing too well in general. and now my dad's depressed, and i'm depressed, and i'm sick of people sticking their nebs into my life, and yeah. and i just got a dress cut at school for wearing a shirt that says, 'Heterosexualy Disinclined'. and no one will tell me why. so yeah, i'm pissed. and tobin and i think that it might be illegal, because it's a political statement, and yeah. i'm saying that a lot, arent i?
i'll start writing more often, and i'll start my comments about being lgbtqi again. have fun!

peace,
Bulldyke

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boho's picture

Well, I'm new, so I never kne

Well, I'm new, so I never knew you, but I just had to comment and say that a shirt that says "Heterosexualy Disinclined" sounds AWESOME. I want a shirt like that.
I know about the depression, the cutting, and the suicidal things. I've been there for the past 6 months or so. Anyway, I wish you the best.

bulldyke's picture

thanks

thanks for saying something. when i was on before, and now again, i try my best to read peoples things, and comment on them. and try to inspire people. look for my 'things to be proud of'. i try to write on every day, but it doesn't always work out. i'm a really out and proud lesbian, and i'm gonna make the school pay for the dress cut!

Bulldyke
"I can't even think straight!"
"Keep your laws off my body!"

boho's picture

That's really cool that you d

That's really cool that you do that. I'm not out at ALL, and it's nice to read a bit of encouragement.

theindigolemon's picture

Have a friend wear a shirt th

Have a friend wear a shirt that says "Homosexually Disinclined", or anything with the word "Heterosexual" on it and see if they get punished. Schools can censor profanity, and the word "Homosexual" is probably not profanity by anyone's definition. What the schools can't do is censor based on the meaning of the speech or only one side of a debate. So censoring the shirt that says "Heterosexually Disinclined", while not censoring the shirt that says "Homosexually Disinclined" is clearly not only illegal but unconstitutional. This censorship is probably unconstitutional based on current precedent. I wanted to do something similar, but I don't go to public school anymore, so... Tell me how it works out. You should really stand up for your free speech rights. Yes, both my parents are lawyers and I care a lot about civil rights.

bulldyke's picture

thanks

i've been in contact (through a friend) with ACLU, and the lawyer who we've talked to thinks that we might be able to call it unconstitutional. i'll see what they do. they're still thinking about whether or not they should let me wear it. and all the adults think that i'm making a big deal over nothing. even my gay teachers, and a gay woman who really likes me, and has pulled strings for me before (she's on the school board). so they all think that it doesn't really matter, but it does! it's something i fight for every day. and i'm not going to stop.

Bulldyke
"I can't even think straight!"
"Keep your laws off my body!"

theindigolemon's picture

it totally does matter, if we

it totally does matter, if we don't take advantage of our rights while we can, one day they won't be there when we need them

bulldyke's picture

yup

hey, e-mail me, eh? i'd like to get to know you better. you sound like a fellow spirit in my fight for rights.

Bulldyke
"I can't even think straight!"
"Keep your laws off my body!"