I don't know what to do...I know that in the end it is all up to me but I have grown up with a certain thought and that is who I am is wrong. In being Bi-sexual and finding myself more attracted to other females, I am going against everything I have been brought up to believe. It's hard...harder still after the death of one of my best friend's and his boyfriend due to blind hatred. I find myself wondering, scared. I know that I have to accept who I am first and foremost but that might just destroy everything I am. It is the most difficult thing to deal with. I know who I am...it's not up for question. I am just afraid...so very, very afraid.