My friend Sam and I are HUGE snowboarders. We can't wait until the snow falls
and we can get out on the hill and have total freedom. She called me today because
she wanted to tell me about this snowboard she found at Scheels All Sport. (Great Store)
It was like a 126, burton chicklet or something like that, and she had my niece
in mind. And it was like $130 bucks. (that's a super good deal by the way)
We have had the go ahead from my brother and "the bitch" to take her out
boarding since she was three, she's almost five now.
Sam is the one person I want to tell that I'm gay to, but I know how she feels
about gay females. She absolutely adores gay men, but her thoughts on lesbianism
aren't so kind. I find it to be strange that she doesn't like lesbians but
gay men are okay? How does that really work out?
Sam has been there for me since I moved here 5 years ago. I was going through
a depression stage which involved cutting, and she was there for me. She brought
me to get help, speak to someone who knew how to deal with it better. And then
a few years later I got to help her with the same problem. She knows pretty much
everything about me, except for this one thing. The big thing too. I hate not
being able to be brave enough to tell her what's going on in my life right now.
I feel she needs to know. But I'm afraid that she won't want anything to do with
I know it's pretty stupid since we have this great relationship, but personally,
if I tell her and she wants nothing more to do with me I won't have anyone. At
least not anyone I can really talk to face to face.
We're going to hang out sometime here in the future, do you think I should
get my act together and just tell her about my sexuality or wait until I feel
totally comfortable with the whole situation?