I really find it a pain that everyone around me is still in love and even more of them are falling in love everyday. I say I want to be single, but my heart tells me to go out with this one girl that really likes me (I like her too). Yet I can't, not only am I still in the closet when it comes to my parents; but my parents will not let me date anyone. I sorta wish that I never found out that she liked me, so that I can go on in blissful ignorance, but I can't I mean since I found out that she liked me, I have been doing so much better. I mean I am getting a 3.7 GPA ( I never achieved that before in my life), I am losing weight (which is hard considering all the goddamn hormones and steroids I have to take), I am not seeing the psychologists anymore. I love the feeling, and I would love to know what it would be to really be in love. I mean I have friends who hooked up and they had to keep it a secret because their parents had the same conditions as mine, and it is ridiculus what they have to do just to sneak a kiss (crawl to the school's underground crawlspace and boiler room or even a broom closet) I don't want to do that, but I know if i come out the worst things can happen. I know my parents will kill me...who ever said love was the easiest thing was either a very rich person or a person in complete and total denial.