Jesus Don't Want Me For a Sunbeam

devildog's picture

Not really. I'm just working on a mixed CD for my confirmation assignment (yes, I'm getting confirmed in the Episcopal church of my own free will. Mainly I'm just doing it to see if I like it).

Today I went to the GLBTQ group at the Unitarian church, and it was pretty awesome. I was the only kid who showed up, since it was the first meeting (boo!), but I got to really talk to the advisors running it, and I really learned a lot. I feel happier and not quite so alone, knowing people who went what I'm going through. I got some great advice, and I'm looking forward to coming out!

I also got a more realistic picture of how my best friend Rose will act like when I tell her. They said she'll probably be shocked, that it'll throw her off a bit, since she's been assuming I'm straight for so long. There'll be an awkward time between us, but that hopefully we'll grow because of it. And it might make her doubt her own sexuality, too...so I'll have to be prepared for that. She has her own issues about sexuality; for some reason it makes her embarassed to be feminine. I'm not sure why, I haven't really asked.

But I think I'm strong enough for that. I'm pretty thick skinned.

Ah, one of my favourite songs is now playing: Sail to the Moon by Radiohead. That's kind of how I feel now-I'm traveling off into a great and exciting unknown. I'm tired of lying to myself and those I care about. It's time to stop being a hypocrite.

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Patch's picture

hope you have fun at those me

hope you have fun at those meetings. I didn't know unitarian churches offered gsa's or whatever.

"What is the purpose of life? It is to create our own purpose."

Sesshoumaru s male lover's picture

Even after I told him, he can

Even after I told him, he can't rember.slap
"The true goal of sex is not enjoyment
,but Pain" The Marquis de Sade.

Patch's picture

you never told me that slap

you never told me that slap

"What is the purpose of life? It is to create our own purpose."

Sesshoumaru s male lover's picture

I did to.I said my famliy won

I did to.I said my famliy won't let me
go to the one at the U-U church.
"The true goal of sex is not enjoyment
,but Pain" The Marquis de Sade.

Patch's picture

like, i totally don't remembe

like, i totally don't remember, and why do you have to get violen slap?

"What is the purpose of life? It is to create our own purpose."

Sesshoumaru s male lover's picture

maybe you just forgot or you

maybe you just forgot or you where high.
"The true goal of sex is not enjoyment
,but Pain" The Marquis de Sade.

Patch's picture

i dnot do drugs. why are you

i dnot do drugs. why are you being so mean

"What is the purpose of life? It is to create our own purpose."

Sesshoumaru s male lover's picture

I'm not being mean

"The true goal of sex is not enjoyment
,but Pain" The Marquis de Sade.

devildog's picture

People, stop slapping eachoth

People, stop slapping eachother!

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Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong.
Oscar Wilde

This always leads to interesting conversations on my part!

Sesshoumaru s male lover's picture

slap

"The true goal of sex is not enjoyment
,but Pain" The Marquis de Sade.

devildog's picture

Thanks:). Yeah, UU churches a

Thanks:). Yeah, UU churches are really liberal-the priest there talked about it, and it sounds awesome. People from all kinds of religions come there to find their own spiritual path together.

I was jelous! My own church is so...dull.

~*~*~*~*~*~

Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong.
Oscar Wilde

This always leads to interesting conversations on my part!