Not really. I'm just working on a mixed CD for my confirmation assignment (yes, I'm getting confirmed in the Episcopal church of my own free will. Mainly I'm just doing it to see if I like it).
Today I went to the GLBTQ group at the Unitarian church, and it was pretty awesome. I was the only kid who showed up, since it was the first meeting (boo!), but I got to really talk to the advisors running it, and I really learned a lot. I feel happier and not quite so alone, knowing people who went what I'm going through. I got some great advice, and I'm looking forward to coming out!
I also got a more realistic picture of how my best friend Rose will act like when I tell her. They said she'll probably be shocked, that it'll throw her off a bit, since she's been assuming I'm straight for so long. There'll be an awkward time between us, but that hopefully we'll grow because of it. And it might make her doubt her own sexuality, too...so I'll have to be prepared for that. She has her own issues about sexuality; for some reason it makes her embarassed to be feminine. I'm not sure why, I haven't really asked.
But I think I'm strong enough for that. I'm pretty thick skinned.
Ah, one of my favourite songs is now playing: Sail to the Moon by Radiohead. That's kind of how I feel now-I'm traveling off into a great and exciting unknown. I'm tired of lying to myself and those I care about. It's time to stop being a hypocrite.