I would think this is a very odd subject, but I'm developing quite a dilemma.. You see, I’ve not once had a relationship with a guy, always been an introvert. I noticed when I was gay when certain guys would just overwhelm me at school and I’d just stare at them behind their back, common things like that. But I went through all of HS with no friends, no relationships, just oblivion.. Now I’m 23, a student, and still have no one. Whenever I bump into ‘acquaintances’ women always tell me I’m cute and ask why I am not seeing anyone. It’s really frustrating, but here’s the killer: I don’t feel any affinity towards a guy that’s over 18. Like when I’m at a mall I’m overwhelmed when I see teenaged guys, especially those skaters on my street!
I don’t understand it at all. It’s a pretty deep issue and I’ve been very turbulent over the years which are a story in its own. No way am I going throw away a grand to talk to a crack pot shrink who could care less about me. And damn me if I turn into some perv..
I found this forum snooping around on google and noticed all the activity and was wondering if there was anyone out there that’s going through this crisis. I mean, this sort of thing will shackle me from any possible happiness for the rest of my life..