My mom told me today that now that she knows I'm gay it's like I'm not the same, and I have died (exact words) I don't know what to do. I agreed to go to counseling, and even opened up to my parents a little bit. But my mom has just mentally bashed me back, whether or not she is doing it on purpose. I feel like I don't matter anymore; my existence is nothing. Why can't I just be who they want me to be, I hate myself for being different, I've made them ashamed. I feel like there is nothing I can do to satisfy them now.