I Am Going Sexually INSANE!

devildog's picture

I'm not sure what brought on this change; it could be my manic teenage hormones, or it could be one of the drugs I'm taking. Whatever the cause, I feel like a nymphomaniac.

The other day, my mother and I went to the Macy's laungerie section in search of braws and underwear. I walked casually through the arrays of lace panties and push ups, but then starting getting ancy, aroused...I WAS SURROUNDED BY PICTURES OF HALF NAKED WOMEN! My head was revolving, the attractions were everywhere; hot gorgeous models in nothing but Calvin Klein underwear, covering their luscious breasts with their hands!

The worst was when I got off by a maniquan. Now, that is just sad.

But it keeps on getting worse; the other night, while peacefully watching television, specifically Comedy Central, the comercials came up, and it seemed like gorgeous women were popping up every second! I just could barely contain myself, I was practically drooling. The worst was when I began chanting "boobs, boobs!" in my head like some deranged nocturn sex crazed zombie.

Then I had a dream last night. I was sitting in some room with a bunch of other teens, watching television (I think this was at school), and this beautiful girl was sitting next to me. Then, I felt someone running their fingers through my hair, and she leaned over and said, "So, I'm gay, you're gay, want to be my girldfriend?" Then we got all prepared for the kiss, and I WOKE UP. Damn it!

Sorry to burden you with all this, just I have no one to talk to about it.

I feel like such a guy.

Anyways, in other news...

I'm starting to feel better, and I had a meeting with the school, and it seems like they'll support me every way they can so I can come back to school. But I'm switching anti-depressents at the moment, so my mood can be rather eratic. The slightest stress will make me incredibally depressed, and I'll start to cry. But hopefully when I fully get onto this drug (ephexor), I'll start getting better. I still can't go out at night though-I'm one of those people who get extremely affected by darkness, so that also makes me depressed. Sheesh.

Also, I got a quizilla account; you can visit my page here. I got two funny quizzes up, one to determine whether you're socially challenged (I should know, lol), and what kind of girl is for you (six choices, man, and some hot pictures).

Told you I'm a nymphomaniac:).

~Sam

Comments

Inkblot's picture

It's ok

I feel like that too sometimes. Just go with it, and don't feel up anyone at school.

devildog's picture

LOL, I'll keep that in mind;)

LOL, I'll keep that in mind;)

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I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Uncertain's picture

If you say you feel like a gu

If you say you feel like a guy, you would only be half right. ;)

devildog's picture

*guffaws* Wow, I guess I'm lu

*guffaws* Wow, I guess I'm lucky then!

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

sugarmagnolia's picture

i've been the same way lately

i've been the same way lately... really attracted to everyone (well, females) i think part of it may come from repressing sexuality for a while, and then finally accepting it and having it be completely overpowering for a while, but i'm hoping it'll start to fade... i also had quite the dream last night, and it pretty much took away any doubts about being gay. oh well. glad you're feeling better, good luck with school.

"freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose"

devildog's picture

Thanks:). And I agree, I thin

Thanks:). And I agree, I think this mainly backlash from repressing myself for so many years and being a hormone crazed teenager:P

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Shenlong the Arcane's picture

Now you know how straight guy

Now you know how straight guys feel constantly!

devildog's picture

LOL, yeah. I'll go scold my s

LOL, yeah. I'll go scold my straight friends to be more nice to them!

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Heh...'s picture

yea i notice the same thing t

yea i notice the same thing too... cept its with guys and not girls... i guess its kind of like when you learn something new it suddenly appears everywhere XD lol the "boobs, boobs" thing... you sound like a horny straight guy XD

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devildog's picture

LOL, I know! Now when the str

LOL, I know! Now when the straight girls whine about guys I'll say, "You don't understand!"

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

NovaCat's picture

It's not just straight guys .

It's not just straight guys . . . I would say most gay guys feel that way too. Except instead of "boobs boobs boobs boobs . . .", it's "cock cock cock cock" or "ass ass ass ass ass" . . . obviously there are others, but those are the primary ones.

devildog's picture

LOL, I'm more of a girl's per

LOL, I'm more of a girl's perspective. In an all girl's school, you hear a lot of complaining about those straight guys! This is usually when I tend to zone out, lol

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Moonmage's picture

Yeah I have that same problem

Yeah I have that same problem sometimes. I go to an all girl school too...makes life fun. But really its nice to know that I am not a pervert and I am not the only one who does this.

"I should never be afraid of who I love but if they love me in return"

devildog's picture

*whew*Same here! I was really

*whew*Same here! I was really thinking I was going nuts...nice to know I'm also normal.

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Inkblot's picture

I took your quizzes

And have concluded that I am a wierd, socially challenged lesbian, but you would like me. And my dream girl is a 'Goth girl'. Big surprise! *rolls eyes*

And all I know for sure
All I know for real
Is knowing doesn't mean so much
When placed against the feeling
The heat inside
When bodies meet
When fingers touch
-The Sisters Of Mercy, Some Kind Of Stranger