i meant to write a sweet entry but went off on society instead...

KieBem81's picture

la la la hey oasis-

there are many new users so maybe i will just introduce myself again...i am a now 20 year old gay chick...for some reason i do not like the term lesbian..i really dont know why since i am one...so yeah ...im a junior in college and started posting here when i stumbled across this site a little more than two years ago..its funny cause at that time i was like so i might be bi...and now i am so gay its not even funny- however i think i was always this gay i just didnt let it out...i feel growing up you discover your gayness and it is a matter of oneself's embracing and acceptance of it .....so i dont think you discover you are gay all at one moment it slowly reveals itself to you...which is what happened to me...it dawns upon you....and then one day you will be like me...* i was so gay and didnt even kno it!! :D

yeah so this site saw my transition....from shy bi- as i know term my old self to what i am now- gay and much more open and free and ready to live more....i go to a support group...i am out to my parents and some relatives and friends and i feel everyday i learn something new or i encounter some new crazy aspect of life i never thought of....its funny how shitty the closet can be** it consumes you and your soul..it causes torment that isnt needed and really is horrible...i blame society for it but what can we do...for now i think this is something i want to help with ..i feel we need to make it easier for the generations to come...and i dont know how but i am sure something can be done to make being gay less painful and more normal for others to accept and see.....being gay took its toll on my morale - my self esteem evrything and i know it prob does for everyone else...so it pisses me off that straight people are the main the cause of this...well not all straight people but the ignorant homophobic mean nonunderstanding non liberal ones- you know which people i mean- because of course there are people that are awesome...i am not judging i am just saying those that think that way suck.

yeah so back to me....i am a science major and i want to go to grad school after college-directo- i think i will continue with science but a part of me is drawn into giving back- and helping out the gay community- or even doing research that would benefit us in the cause for equality and acceptance

because honestly WHAT THE FUCK IS TOLERANCE - really how can we even have that phrase!!!!! to me it translates into be FAKE...you dont have to like them just be nice around them...thats horrible and it applies to anything someone wants to tolerate...race-class gender etc seriously why cant people just be genuine!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah..for now...gr....gr.....society needs help....



niks121997's picture


We've come a long way haven't we? I'm happy to hear that you're doing well. :)

"Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect. We take what we get and are thankful that it is no worse than it is."

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

KieBem81's picture

for real - you and i talked way back when i was in the dark

hows life? i hope well.....we are almost done college ..isnt it scary!!

"If you love someone, tell them for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken"

1 in 3 women think of having sex or experimenting with other women

"Should I smile because we're friends or frown because thats all we'll ever be?"

cnn* :)