My Eyes Are Empty and My Soul is Lost

Icarus's picture

I wish this could be a poem, but my creativity chip seems to be malfunctioning and I'm only getting by on the basics. i'm always so tired...and not in the good way. I feel like someone turned my switch from "Normal" (relatively speaking) to "Slow". I seem to have lost my energy and most of my emotions. My chest, from my sternum to my collarbone seems to have been scooped out with a shovel. It's a mixture of missing my mom a TON, and being totally lost in this world. All my friends are straight guys, and while I love them, I just wish I could find someone like me. I wish I could just have someone to be my friend...not even looking for a girlfriend, just someone I could talk to. I want to start a lesbigay club, but I'm too scared to ask. I know I'm whining and I sound like a selfish bitch, ain't going to well. I'm a tiny bit afraid I might be clinically depressed. Both my parents have it, my sister has it, and I might have it too. But the thing is, I'm so good at faking it, if I told dad, he probably wouldn't believe me. Strike that. Well...I dunno. My head is so full of smooshed grey matter that I can barely think. Also have my driver's permit test today, so wish me luck on that and pray I don't kill anyone driving.


ACCgirl's picture

positivity isn't normally my forte, but....

Good luck with the test and feel better soon. Eventually stuff will brighten up, it always does. And you already knew that. :-)