The Cherubim in the Walls (Still fairly rough)

devildog's picture

And how old am I?
I feel infinite,
a waxen form taking unbending shapes for eternity.
And have you fucked me?
Oh yes, you’ve fucked me—
right in the place where it hurts,
that secret place not even my mother knows.
You think me impetuous?
Craven maybe;
that fits your sentiment.
But I’m not quite so young,
a small rosebud not yet blooming.
I’ve given up my naïve ways, haven’t I?
You’ve made sure I gave them up to death;
my devil in Hell,
that little imp dwelling in the back of my mind.
You played with my fancy,
giving me up for hopeless hatred.
The walls gave way to fire and I cried out,
thinking the abyss was finally taking me down.

Does depression kill you?
—Yes.
Does anxiety fuck you with a million bullets?
—Yes.
And will it ever stop,
will the pills suck it dry like little sponges?
Maybe,
and then maybe you’ll get a girl into your bed tonight.
That’s what you want, isn’t it?
Oh, and then the cherubim will come,
dangling laurel wreaths of crimson and gold.
Will trumpets sound as you climax,
their little golden feet flying round your bedclothes?

Maybe then you will see,
when the fireworks have died away,
what it means to be holy—
not just in mind but in soul.

Comments

sugarmagnolia's picture

wow, you're very talented. a

wow, you're very talented. awesome poem.

"freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose"

toxic16's picture

its.........

it is very original but a little too weird for my taste( no offence)do you ever write anything happy?

devildog's picture

LOL, sometimes-my poetic muse

LOL, sometimes-my poetic muse however isn't very happy though.

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Inkblot's picture

awesome!

*applaudes wildly* heh... my poetic muse is clinically depressed, and only kicks in when I'm feeling low.

devildog's picture

Thanks! *bows* LOL, I actuall

Thanks! *bows* LOL, I actually have a name for my poetic muse-Flora. She's a blonde lesbian Venetian with a sick and dark sensibility...lol
~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Inkblot's picture

hmmm

Cool. I call mine The Dark Lady.

napalmhamster's picture

I call mine Ted -A.J.-

I call mine Ted

-A.J.-

My mission is to see the world with eyes unclouded by pain, confusion, or hate

devildog's picture

Thanks:) ~*~*~*~*~*~ I

Thanks:)

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

Icarus's picture

O_O It's very original and

O_O It's very original and aweseome beyond all belief. The content worries me a bit, but being a writer, I understand the process of shooting it out through words. Nicely done. *Big hug*

"Quick, emergency rhinoplasty!!"
*WHAM*
"You took a baseball bat to my nose!!"

devildog's picture

Thanks! ~*~*~*~*~*~ I

Thanks!

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

woodrabbit326's picture

head over heels

I am falling beyond in love with your poetry and every word I read of it. The sense of every emotion and nuance is huger than.. I don't even know what. But it is beautiful and amazing.

***There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. - Friedrich Nietzsche***

devildog's picture

Thank you, that means so much

Thank you, that means so much!

~*~*~*~*~*~

I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian