thinking about the year [2005]

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Another year has come to a close. When I look back on 2005, all I can say is, Wow. I was a top spinning around, hair flying all over the place. Angry. Hurt. Sad. Cynical. Bitchy.

More self-confident and self-assured. More cutting and sarcastic.

Horny. Wasted. Reckless. Experimental.

Barely studied the first half; felt tied down to school by a ball and chain the second. I think maybe I learned to think less. Maybe not.

Wanted to spit bullets. Did.

In some ways, I have found the upside of anger. (I recommend that movie, by the way.) Uh... and the downside of love? Woah, hella cliche. But, well, yeah. The downside of letting your guard down and allowing someone to come on in and do what they will. I'd like to think I won't do that again but that's a bit naive now, isn't it?

I would like to thank you for the year. It was quite an experience, and sufficiently kicked my ass. But I learned a helluva lot. Like every year, probably, but this one threw me through quite a few loops.