What's been going on lately...

stupid enough's picture

Stuff has been happening lately...

I've decided that the girl I was crushing on doesn't really I don't know... "click" with me, you know? I don't know, but I just don't really care that much anymore.

My friend was telling me how she thought that I blew through crushes really fast, but the funny thing is that the friend who said that to me is the girl who I had got my first crush on, and I liked her for 2 years.

There's another girl I like (I actually like 4 girls and they all have names that end with 'a'...creepy huh?)who I sit next to in one class, and randomly she'll start petting my hair. The first time she did it she was like "Pretty hair" (I think she's attracted to shiny objects) and the second time she said "I just do it to freak you out" Then the other day she left to go to the library for a second, and she gave me this weird look like when you're trying to 'talk' to someone using facial expressions and stuff, and she said "I'm gonna miss you" She's a bit on the weird side (maybe more than a bit) but i don't care. I'm not quite friends with her, but it's not like I've never talked to her before.

Then this OTHER girl (lets call her D or else it might get confusing) that I like who I'm friends with, and she's also friends with my other friend (lets call her C). D told C that she thinks she's gay. Yay for me right? The only thing is me and C think that D might actually like C. D also asked me once about the girl who I used to like, and I told her I didn't like her anymore (this was over the phone) and then C got on the phone, and C asked me if there was anyone else I liked, and this didn't make sense cause I tell C almost everything, and that included who I liked. Then I asked who was listening to the conversation, and stuff, and C said that D had asked her to ask me. D flirts with me sometimes, but it's a bit confusing though cause D kinda flirts with...everyone... but she sorta gives C the 'extra' attention so I guess I'll just have to wait it out and see.

Outside of the topic of depressing girls who I probably don't have a chance with...

My cousin bought me a rainbow belt, and she's going to sneak it over to my house for Christmas (just cause I'm not quite ready to be out to my Aunts, Uncles, Grandpa etc) I'm so happy though. My friend also sent me a rainbow belt in the mail, and the colors are like studs, so there's a row of red studs, orange, yellow ...

Last night at my friend's Christmas party a number of my friends admitted to having some feelings for the same sex, but they would never actually go out with someone of the same sex. Then one of my other friends said he wasn't sure, and maybe he was bi or even gay.

Well I think that's enough for now


devildog's picture

Wow, your life sounds like an

Wow, your life sounds like an intriguing soap opera. I hope everything sorts itself out in the end!


I’m not as sad as Doestoevsky,
I’m not as clever as Mark Twain,
I’ll only buy a book for the way it looks,
And I'll stick it on the shelf again.
-Belle and Sebastian

SeeingBelievingTruth's picture

wow.. thats an interesting po

wow.. thats an interesting post. You almost sound like one of my friends... *hmm* well.. good luck with that...