So, a little whil ago I had a conversation with one of my online friends and it put my life in perspective. We had this....interesting conversation (if anyone's really desperate to know what it was you can ask me), but looking at what I said/typed, it made me realize that there is no way I'm straight. Whether or not I'm bi or lesbian I don't know, but I'm sure that I like girls.
I keep expecting to feel all different. I know you can't 'feel' gay. I know that I'm still me, but still...
And now I'm all scared I'll loose this sureness I have. Like I'll wake up and it'll be gone.
I talked to my mom earlier and I ended up saying "I think I'm bi"
She said that bi's are disgusting and that they can never live happily with just one person and that if I am bi I should not have kids cus it would confuse them.
Well, I'll just have to have plenty of money for my future kids' therapy
She says that I'm just confused and I've only met strong female personalities and I'm afraid to like a guy and I don't know how to talk to them. Well, personally, I've never cared whether or not I have guy friends. If I do fine, but if I don't oh well.
I told her I'd see a shrink if it made her happy. Part of me wants to though. I need to talk to someone, and she's too biased she says she's not. but her reaction disagrees.