KennyD broke up with me just minutes, before I boarded the plane. He told me that I am a great guy, but he
no longer wants to hold on to me, he doesn't have any feelings for me. I have been foreseeing for times
but I am a guy that would give up easily - but he didn't give us a chance to fight, to talk and to grieve
Our relationship was rewarding and passionate. It was the first mature and grown up relationship I ever had.
The most beautiful thing about it was we felt the need to hide it from anyone. I could always kiss him
whereever we are and whenever. Deep down I am still wishing to see his embracing arms open up and him asking
me if we want to do it all over again, when I got back to Glasgow in two weeks time.
I wonder if he was trying to avoid a confrontation, when we waited until last minute to break up with me.
In opion, it was really selfish. of him to do that. Remember this was that I am still working with on the day
to day and we have been friends for years. He didn't give a chance to talk to my friends, or allow me
to have an outlet of any sorts. For 13 hours, I was restless, emotional and tired.
I tried so hard to get ridded of my dad since he picked me up. We also have a live-in house keeper. I really
wanted to be on my own. But I couldn't tell my dad about my sexuality or the relationship just yet. Well
not when I am valunable. Around 2 a.m. I sneaked into my dad's room. I told him I love him. I sat down on
his bed and tears started to come from nowhere. I went back ito my room and listen to my some musics and
DC's Emotion came up. I think that sums up my Emotion right now. I paged Marc and Jamie to tell them what
happened. They are really supportive and care a lot about me. I am missing them more than ever.