- I want to be myself!
Already, you're thinking: "I've read this before."
Well you haven’t, so keep on reading.
(Btw, this is about coming out at school, which I am planning on doing in the very immediate future.)
Anyway, where was I. Ah, yes: I want to be myself.
And not lie every time some one asks me what I think of some girl. Or when other guys talk about girls and how hot they are, I don’t want to pretend to be of the same opinion. And although I know that I'll be happier with myself if I just stop caring what everyone else thinks, it feels like maintaining this cover is far simpler than having people at school calling you a faggot every time you walk past them. Somehow, it just seems more painful to be out, and making your friends choose between "hanging out with the gay guy" and keeping their distance. Hiding who you are sure beats watching everyone leave the showers as you walk in. Surely, it has to be less complicated than having to correct people every time they ask if you have a girlfriend, and you have to say: "No, I don’t have a BOYfriend. Yet, that is," and witnessing their eager expression fade away in disappointment.
Some teens even become harassers of other gays, to take any focus and possible suspicion away from themselves. It also lets out any anger they might have for being gay. But it will not make them feel better. And it will not solve anything.
These are just a couple of the reasons glbt teens stay closeted. And I could go on. Because the world is a cruel place, and children are vicious. And people will continue to judge and cause pain with their ignorance and fear for the unknown. Might as well accept it now.
That’s why I’m coming out at school. Because I know what to expect.
Why should one care for the empty thoughts and emotions of strangers? Their cheap remarks, reeking of low self-esteem and personal insecurities; why should they affect me?