"The thing that I miss most is missing you."
Maybe getting back with The Boyfriend wasn't such a good idea. I was just getting used to being single and the worst thing that had really happened was finding out MM has a boyfriend, the day I was going to tell her I've got feelings for her. Ironic huh. Oh and another thing was MP finding out I've got feelings for her too. Maybe a word for me is "infatuous" because I fall in and out of "love" about as often as I change my jeans. I only ever tell people about the crushes that last longer than a month so I rarely tell people, but I do seem to have feelings for a new and exciting person every day. Jeez.
So anyway. Now I feel like I'm tangled in a spider's web - sticky but fragile, and aboslutely not where I want to be. I keep thinking, what if I'm not bi. What if I'm just a lesbian. It wouldn't be so bad, I mean I've no problem with it. Maybe all my feelings for guys are as friendship.
I would suggest The Boyfriend and I take a break, again, but I don't think he'd take me back, again, if I realised (again) that I think I do have feelings for him. When I've got him I only want him a little, but without him I need him (a lot). It's so confusing!
I wish someone could answer these for me, but I guess only I can...