Slut

pixies_in_the_underworld's picture

On Saturday, I decided to hang out with my best friend, catch her play, then go to a party afterwards. There were only six people there, three girls and three guys. I don't know why, but they lied and told them I was bi, too. I hooked up wit this really sweet girl at first, but after the guys came back with alcohol things got a little bit weird. we drank, smoked, then played truth or dare, starting with me giving some guy a strip dance, and we ended making out. We kept drinking and all of a sudden everyone was making out on the beds swapping each other and taking off cloths as if it were nothing. I hooked up with every single person there, including my best friend (which was to keep one of the guys away from her, and it was actually slightly icky, not because she's not pretty or...talented, but because she's my best friend). I practically screwed everyone there with my underwear on, which after some more drinking came off, but thankfully everyone else's stayed on. I'm an idiot. I thank god I don't go to school with these people, but this is the second time in which I've gotten myself in trouble with my best friend's school mates and alcohol. I made out with those guys because they wanted me, desired me, it gave me a sadistic thrill. I pretty much kept them from trying to do shit to me, barely let them touch me, but I touched them, and felt nothing. I wasn't aroused at all. Actually, I was quite bored. there was this one guy I started talking kinda dirty with, and that was kinda fun, but only because I liked messing with him. Oh and one of the guys, is someone who's best friend's with the only ex boyfriend I actually cared a little bit about. So yeah. I was totally sloshed, but had to act sober to get my mom to pick me up at three o clock in the morning and drop me my friend, and the other girl off at our houses. The sad thing is that it worked, pretty much. I think the only good that came out of that night, is that the other girl decided she liked me. We were waiting outside for my Mom to pick me up, and I whispered in her ear, "You know what's funny? You're the only one I wanted to hook up with, and I barely spent any time with you." She turned around to me, said, "Me, too," and we started kissing again. I liked talking to her before when we were sober, too. She's cool and pretty nice.

I just hope she can get past the fact that I've acted like a total and complete slut. I am a slut. Jesus, and I wasn't even attracted to them, they were just less boring than sitting and staring at nothing.

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Chizuna san's picture

been there

been there, hon. i've got a bit of a slutty rep because i always end up hooking up at parties, mainly cause it gets so boring just sitting around and listenin to drunk people yammer. as for the girl, she'll prolly get over it. i hooked up with this onw girl, then ended up dating her little sis for two months, but her and i are still real tight (n more casual hooking up though)