Spiders

milee13's picture

I'm terrified of spiders and i'm home alone and there's one in my house.

Here's an amusing conversation that i've been having about it on msn.

me:
there's a spider in my house.
Liz:
eee
me:
jessica used to kill them for me
Liz:
i remember that! she told me about that
Liz:
she said that was really the only time you ever got overly worried
me:
yeah...arachnaphobia, i like snakes and everything, but spiders....gah. i've tried killing them myself but i can't. i even have nightmares about them
me:
it's on the ceiling.
Liz:
can you get someone else to kill it?
me:
no one else is home. It's just me and the spider, but it's moving away from em and as long as I don't lose sight of it i'm good
me:
i think it's going to sleep.
me:
ooh maybe it's dying!
Liz:
lol
me:
no really, that would be good, otherwise i'll end up going to my room to hide and dreaming about them
Liz:
oh god.. that's enough to give me nightmares
me:
it's moving again
Liz:
i can't stand for people that i like or people that i don't hate to suffer
me:
if i was talking to molly right now i would call her and make her come kill it
me:
where is my mother when i need her to kill the spider? That's her job!
Liz:
lol, maybe you should call molly anyway
me:
i can't. but i may try and kill it myself
Liz:
good luck!
me:
i can't get close enough with the broom it's moving down the wall....god what the hell is wrong with me!
Liz:
it's ok.. i don't like snakes
me:
it has so many legs!!!
me:
maybe i have soemthing i can spray it with to kill it!
Liz:
hair spray maybe
me:
do you think febreze would work?
liz:
it's possible
me:
it's moving again i have to keep watching it
me:
furniture polish doesn't work...now i'm going to have to explain why it's on the couch....
me:
i think it likes the polish....
me:
mmm it smells good now, like blue jello and lemon polish
Liz:
lol
me:
i wish my family hadn't screwed up the can of raid. i think my cat is going after it. if i go away for a while it's because it got too close to the computer...i'm afraid of my hair because i think it's a spider too
Liz:
harir?
me:
hair and i scared it onto the floor with the broom!
me:
damn it
Liz:
just step on it
me:
did jessica tell you just how scared of them i am?
liz:
emily.. if you have shoes on it can't hurt you
Liz:
emilee
me:
i don't...gross
liz:
sorry.. i got in the moment
Me:
gross
liz:
gah
me:
and i can't actually see it because it's behind some furniture
Me:
i had it on the windowsill and tried to smack it with the broom handle but i missed. i'm going to get soem shoes
me:
part of my fear comes from when i lived in stuttgart and my room was infested with brown recluses and my mom tried to get me to clean them out....
me:
oh and when i encountered jumping wolf spiders in oregon
me:
but as long as they stay away from me and out of my room i'm good
liz:
hmm
me:
i live upstairs...how do they get up here?
Liz:
i'm not sure.. if they think it's cold outside they'll go where ever they can to get warm
me:
i didn't really want an answer. now i'm going to think about that all the time, like when i realized crabs were the exoskeletoned spiders of the sea
me:
the longer the spider is out of sight the more coherent and rational i become. i apologize for the typed panic attack...just imagine me alone with spider.....
Liz:
it's fine, i completely understand
liz:
if there was a snake in here... uhh yea
me:
alec's afraid of snakes...we encountered one leaf collecting and he freaked out and tried to scare it
me:
i didn't know what he was doing at the time....
me:
the spiders back
me:
now it's behind the couch cause i hit the wall with the broom...good thing bailee isn't home, her room is on the other side
Liz:
is she afraid of them?
me:
no, but i smacked her wall. I need soemthing to put on the end of the broom because i just can't seem to get it with that...my mom's shoe as punishment?
me:
the phone?
Liz:
uhhh
Liz:
i would go with a shoe
me:
yeah, the phone is big and heavy but i don't think i could get it to stay on the broom....
Liz:
I would say a shoe since you could sitck the broom handle into the shoe
me:
yeah, maybe a boot...actually i think i may have killed it with that last jab
Liz:
lol
me:
it went in the kitchen, fergi is after it, maybe she'll eat it
liz:
hmm
me:
yeah...i really thought i got it too...was so proud
Liz:
awww.. well i think you handled it well
me:
me too.
me:
i appreciate your allowing em to share this experience with you
Liz:
aww well i'm honored.. i know that i would be freaking out horribly if there was a snake in her
Liz:
here
liz:
my dad wants tv time.. i'll be back
me:
k

The cat has come back into the living room and i don't know if she got the spider...hmmm.

Comments

skittles_13's picture

spiders

you shouldn't really be scared of spiders, I should Know i always catch them and research them. They usually turn out to be harmless, and most of the time they will ignore you if you ignore them. Take care. laters

milee13's picture

I know

My fear is almost entirely irrational but I can't seem to get over it. i see their legs and they have so many little eyes and they jump and scramble....
I dreamt about them last night, they were everywhere and I was trying to shoot them, but I didn't really have a gun so I was just leaping around crying "bang! Bang!" and going through the motions and trying to get them to understand...it didn't work.

The sun is shining out of my hands
it can burn, it can blind you
when it breaks out of the fists
it lays down hotly on your face
it lays down painfully on your chest
balance is lost
it lets you go hard to the floor
and the world counts loudly to ten