god dammit...PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!

bratalamay's picture

fuck...i dont know what to do now. i hate my school, but i dont think i have it in me to transfer cuz 1. i have my "best" friend there (even though im not sure if we're really as close as we think) and 2. i think i'm in love w/ the girl i "went out" w/ and then she turned around and spread rumors about me. not to mention the fact that i dont even know if im straight or gay or bi or tri or w/e. i cant deal w/ this much longer. ive dealt w/ these kinds of things before but its worn me down over the years. i wish i wouldn't think about this so much, i wish it would just come to me and then i would tell people and it would be a surprise instead of, "i think i might be gay" (me), "well, u know i will love u no matter what." (both mom and gay dad). jesus... WTF???!!! please help me... people always tell me im strong for my age and all the things ive been through, and i knew that, but im starting not to feel very strong anymore... anyone?? please?

Love,
Me

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Lil Miss's picture

Breathe

Hey chic,
you really don't seem to be coping right now. take a deep breath. as to being unsure of your sexuality, someday it will come to you. but it may take a bit of painful soul searching and honesty with yourself. its not going to happen overnight though. am i reading this right? you have told your parents that you think you might be gay already? if so, and thats their response, well good on you.. you have the support of your parents and thats going to be a very good thing during this stage of questioning, and when coming out to all of your friends.

I hope thigs start to work out for you. stay strong and keep smiling ok? if you need someone to talk to msg me on here.

Al

Satieva Nesmith's picture

Help

Well, it will come to you; it most likely won't be as fast as you want it to, but it will in time, just be patient (I know it's hard to be patient, I'm one of the most impatient people in the world lol).

Also, it's great that you already have the support of your parents. Don't take that for granted (not saying you will or are), a lot of people like us don't have that. I'm blessed that my parents are supportive of me, too.

Don't lose hope, and don't give up on the situation or yourself. Everything will be okay eventually. It took me a while, too. Yeah, it was very frustrating and confusing, but in the time it took to discover this part of myself and confirm what it really was, I learned a lot about myself and who I was, and gained a lot of maturity through it as well.

Hope I helped you out at least a little bit. Good luck!

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