fuck...i dont know what to do now. i hate my school, but i dont think i have it in me to transfer cuz 1. i have my "best" friend there (even though im not sure if we're really as close as we think) and 2. i think i'm in love w/ the girl i "went out" w/ and then she turned around and spread rumors about me. not to mention the fact that i dont even know if im straight or gay or bi or tri or w/e. i cant deal w/ this much longer. ive dealt w/ these kinds of things before but its worn me down over the years. i wish i wouldn't think about this so much, i wish it would just come to me and then i would tell people and it would be a surprise instead of, "i think i might be gay" (me), "well, u know i will love u no matter what." (both mom and gay dad). jesus... WTF???!!! please help me... people always tell me im strong for my age and all the things ive been through, and i knew that, but im starting not to feel very strong anymore... anyone?? please?