so i'm reading this book called "Fly On The Wall", and it's about this girl who wishes she were a fly on the wall of the boys locker room, and it actually comes true (usually this kind of thing is too Sci-Fi for me but its actually pretty cool). so she's all freaked at first, then she realizes where she is and is looking at all these naked high school guys for all nine periods throughout the day. and so now i'm extremely relieved at this very small step toward figuring out my sexuality, because thinking about watching a whole bunch of naked high school guys doesnt interest me, it bores me (and disgusts me a little, too :). add this with what i said in a previous entry (i think i'm in love w/ the girl i "went out" w/ who turned around and spread rumors about me) and i'm feeling 40% better than i did last night :-) just 60% more to go and hopefully by then i'll know whether i'm straight (HIGHLY unlikely), gay (EXTREMELY likely), or bi (quite possible). the other main point of this entry is to thank the (2) people who offered me condolences last night when i felt so horrible. thnx guys.