Right, as much as I staved off writing something about this, the pull of Oasis has won me over. I just HAVE to write something before I go mad.
Last night we went to a pub for a drink after a really nice day out with friends. We were going to have a BBQ and shit, but once people got home everyone was "too tired" or "had too much homework", so just me and a friend got kinda disappointed (because we don't act like 40 year olds). Anyway, later on my friend phoned me to go to the pub, so we did. When there we met two guys from school, one of them is quite out to everyone, but at the same time, isn't. I don't know if that makes sense, but there we have it.
Anyway, as the night progressed we ended up sitting with them. By the end of the night it was just me, the gay guy and the straight guy. I went to the toilet as the pub drew to a close, and he totally followed me. I was walking out and we just kinda started talking. And he was all up for finding somewhere to continue the night, just with me. And I'm like, okay, is this guy coming on to me? (he is amazingly good looking...like seriously.)
So anyway we went to Tesco to buy a sandwich. And like he keeps trying to get it out of me that I'm gay. But I'm annoyed with myself for even going along with this guy because he's all like, "When I'm sober I'll go back to hating you, you're just so loud." And then I just knew he wanted me to say I was gay and that was that. And like he told me some other stuff that was quite horrible. He didn't say it in a nasty way, and I don't think he was trying to be nasty at all. He was just doing the whole "drunk and too truthful" thing.
Anyway he ended up at my house to have some more beer, at about 1-1.30am. And at this point I knew there was nothing sexual at all, but I was sorta drunk and it seemed like a random thing to do at the time. We talked until about 3am, and one of the things that pissed me off is how he was so SHALLOW! He would only go out with guys who are a "9.8 to 9.9" on his scale, and because he's good looking he said "I can have standards like that". And he started talking about how the whole gay community relies completely on looks and I was like, "Personality is more important than looks no matter what your sexuality is" and he just patronised me and said something about how I have no experience in the gay community, but once I do, I'll realise how it mostly depends on looks.
But I thought about all the gay people I've spoken to online, and the poll they had here a few days ago, and I think he just bases his opinion on the gay community on London gay clubs. He goes to them a lot. He said I should give him my number so he can take me to them one time. And I'm like, "You think I'm going to go to London with someone who won't speak to me when they are sober?" and he's like, "Yeah but I'll just call you when I'm drunk". Good lord did he dig a hole.
I think the pure shock of being so offensive the whole night kind of numbed me, but anyway, at 3am I had just about enough. I said I think it's time for him to go, and he was like, "What have I said that's triggered you?" and I said I'd count to 5 or I'd drag him out, and I reached 0 so I dragged him across the living room. And then he just sat on the chair on the other side of the living room, and asked me why I've suddenly got pissed off, and I said I've been pissed off and angry at most of his comments throughout the night, and he sort of blinked and shut up. And then he started to get up and I just went ahead and opened the doors and he stumbled away.
I have no memory loss about the whole night, despite all I had to drink. But I was just so disappointed that he wasn't nicer. Although I didn't once admit to him that I was gay, it was just... obvious and stuff. And so he's like the first guy I've spoken to as being gay, and him being gay back... and it wasn't a great experience. Kind of upsetting.
Okay, ramble over, glad I got that off my chest.