I am so glad this term is over lol.
I would like to take this oppertunity to thank Jesus for my easter school holidays and for easter buns. Lol.
So the last few weeks have been pretty rough.. I screwed up a drama performance, a prepared reading,
then 2 drama assesments,and then my music assessment. Lol.
My friends have kinda decided I'm cursed lol.. Who else would manage to get a couple of litres of pudding
all over another schools stage less than 10 seconds into a performance..
I know I'm not cursed, it's just I'm really, really distracted. I still can't for the life of me figure out
whether I'm bisexual or a lesbian lol. The second I'm sure something changes my mind either way -rolls eyes-
Taking up a little to much of my thought time to be healthy I think. For example, Tuesday in Classics.
In my head there is this constant little quiz game going.. classics (and pretty much every other moment of every day!)
went a little like this..
"Ok, I need to read this paragraph on Roman Religion.. Oh look, a pic of a naked woman, lol. Anywho.. The
romans believed that to have any hope of-
hey, her breasts are bigger than mine! Sucks for me. That naked guy
beside her is just boring -imagines other naked men at this point- oh wow, I totally got nothing then..FUCK..
I wonder if I only got nothing cos i WANT to be a lesbian subconsciously? What if thats what I want but I'm
actually just not! Oh shit- must read.. of influencing the Gods, they had to make every request in the form
of a prayer, and that it was important-
Hmm.. that guy there looks kinda like that guy I meet with the longish hair cut the other day.. He was kinda
cute.. Could I fuck him? -trys to imagine self with guy- Shit that doesn't feel right.. Then why was I like
looking at him and stuff when we were in the same room?!?! Is that a crush? It must be! But I don't want to
fuck him! Or do I? No! Yes! NO! -Bells rings- SHIT"
Eep. Lol.Reading that over it's a tad mental huh. But its seriously whats going on in my brain like... allllllllll
the time. Hate to be morbid but I don't really know how much longer I can cope with it.Hopefully it'll sort
itself out soon? Can only look on the bright side and assume that :)
On a side note, today I spent 4 hours cleaning my room. FOUR. And I filled four massive bags with rubbish.
Rofl. It's honestly the first time there have been clean surfaces up here in about a year. I have the greatest
sense of accomplishment now lol. Anywho, I'd best go return a DVD.. And I think I'm actually babysitting
right now, I needa go check my little brother didn't eat all of his 1kg easter egg in one go lol, bet he did.