some weird poem i wrote in a totally confused moment

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i'm in love with two people
Male and Female
and I'm not even sure about
the Male.
they're both interesting and engaging
and quite beautiful.
but with one...there's no chemistry
and the other?
straight or gay?
He sits there and i tell myself
"i like him, i like him"
but in my mind
i see her face
smiling at me
laughing at my jokes.
meanwhile he speaks
earnestly, thinking i'm listening.
but all i hear is,
"Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah."
i smile, pretending
i care
when all i want
is to hold her in my arms
to find her hand in mine.
it's killing me
trying to choose
but i know i have to
i can't go through life
lying like this.