What I do when I'm bored

milee13's picture

So over summer I happened upon this christian youth forum thing that is against homosexuality and advocates therapy, and I decided that it would be fun to infiltrate. My first attempt garnered this response


I have reviewed your application and its seems innocent enough. However, in looking at your my space, it appears that your heart is very opposed to the positions and opinions that we in Living Hope Ministry would espouse. You claim to be an Atheists, you are pro gay, and you think that gay marriage should be made legal. On each account, you will find the Living Hope Youth forums to be diometricly opposed to your position and I think we make that very clear if you read through the application process and our ministry position.

If I am woefully misguided here or have misread you in some way, I would welcome your response to clarify this discrepancy.

Our forums are for those that have unwanted same gender attraction and are desiring to change through a more personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Is this something you feel you want to do? Is this the kind of group to which you would be comfortable interacting in a positive way?

I look forward to reading your reply.

Blessings to you,
LHY Moderator

And so I tried again and sent them an excellent e-mail about how I didn't feel comfortable expressing my desire to change in my current surroundings and how my friend had recently come out to me and I feared for his "safety" while engaging in the "homosexual lifestyle.
And their response was to allow me to join.

Is it wrong of me to have been curious enough to actually join their little group? And would anyone else like to check it out? It's kind of the antithesis of Oasis.....


taste the rainbow's picture

no, it is definatly not wrong

no, it is definatly not wrong of you to be curious. Joining their little group is no more right or wrong than joining this group, it's simply a look at things from another point of view where you gain more knowledge that you may or may not use in the future.

"What they don't know can't hurt them

but it sure as hell can hurt me"

milee13's picture

Well I joined under false pre

Well I joined under false pretenses as I'm pretty happy with being my gay self at this point... I just wanted to see how they went about discussing the issues and whether or not they were actually being supportive of the people that come to them for help.

It reminds me of when I was younger and attended church regularly, before I realized that I was gay, and what may have happened to me if I had done so while still a member of my church and religion.

Kind of makes me all frustrated but some of their discussions are fascinating.
California--the land of coffee and bagels.

Adam A's picture


i think it devious and cunning, i love it! i'm sorry, i'm a bit bias, but i hate that whole way of thinking, that we need therapy and that homosexuality is a disease, but then, i'm like you in that i'm more than happy with being gay. i reckone you should listen to what they have to say, raise some questions and then when u'r ready to leave, leave then a nice little messege about how to suppress who you are is something God wouldn't want you to do e.t.c. go for it i reckone, good for you
take care