I did it. I came out to my mum.
Oh my god, I feel so...I don't even know, I'm a bit drunk. Well, quite drunk. But like, I don't feel much different. But now I feel like I could come out to the entire world.
She was totally accepting. We discussed how a couple of years back she said she would be disappointed, and she explained she didn't mean she would be disappointed in me, but rather, she would be disappointed FOR me that I couldn't have children, that people would prejudice me and that I wouldn't experience some of the wonderful experiences that she's felt.
She said she had thought it for some time - in fact, that's how I came out really. We were talking and she talked about how she thinks she knows things about me that I wouldn't know, and I was like, "Like what things? What do you think you know about me?" and then there was a 1 second silence and she said, "Well I have questioned whether you're straight." And I just sort of nodded and said "Mmhmm..." and it went from there really.
We've both just had this discussion about how people hate against gay people and stuff, and I told the story about those 2 guys in Iraq being hanged for being gay, and the fatwa that Muslim put on his website, telling people to kill all homosexuals in the most painful way possible. She nodded and agreed with the whole thing very appropriately.
I thought I would feel very differently to what I do. I think I will tomorrow. I just feel nothing right now, it's weird. I knew this day was coming soon, I just knew it. But just...