I really want to tell someone but I'm afraid that when I do I will avoid whoever I tell because I'll be afraid of what they think. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable around me either, just treat me like me. I know it would be different for awhile and there's no way of getting around that, but I'm just afraid. I also wouldn't know exactly who to tell either. My most accepting friend is probably the friend I see the least of because she is so busy all the time and has so many other friends. My closest friend is probably the one that would be the most weirded out by it and I don't feel close enough to any of my other friends to talk to them. I know of only one other gay person at my school (a guy) and I was thinking about talking to him but because I don't know him that well, I'm not sure if I can trust him not to tell any of his friends.
I have also been keeping myself from doing it until I feel comfortable in my body again. I have gotten out of shape and, as shallow as it is, I would like to get back into shape so that when I come out and feel as if people are noticing me more (hopefully they don't), I will at least feel that I look good. I am usually very active, but because I fell into depression for awhile I didn't do much of anything so I feel like I want to take care of myself again and get in shape mentally and physically before I come out. I don't really liked to be noticed, I like to just be an observer in social situations, so I try to "blend in" with what I wear and I don't talk much. So I feel like I need the extra confidence to help me.
I really want to come out to someone though, it would be nice to have an actual conversation with someone about what I feel and maybe sort some things out. I have been confused, but definately liking girls, for almost 5 years now and its getting frustrating having to go over it in my own head all the time with no one to verbally get it out to. I am so glad that I found this site though! It has helped me out so much, just being able to see that other people out there are having the same troubles as me and that these troubles can be solved. So thank you to everyone!