ya i have been crying a lot to like a ton!!! you know that gurl i was talking about?? well i have liked her for 2 years. and she is a total bitch!!! i dont know why but know matter what she does i cant hate her! i really wish i did it would be so much esier!! she will hug me and then just walk away and totaly egnore me. but that is what i look forward to most every day is that one moment in her arms. i dont want to let go!!! i wish i didnt have to. but then at the same time she makes me so fucking pissed. or so sad i feel like shit kinda like right now. i am starting to like her less then before but it hurts really bad coming to the realization that we dont have a chance together.
i have been eating ice cream as my main coarse since yesterday.i need a girls night. just to sit and watch movies and have some "me" time. oooooo wich(on a hapy note) i get to do on friday. i met this really nice 16 yearold lez who i get to have a sleeepover with on friday!!! im really excited... i just need to make shure i dont like try to rebound with her. but even if i do atleast it will get my mind off of mariah.