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the ghost's picture

I feel so down today and im not even sure why exactly.I wish I could just be honest and tell people about
my sexuality.Its like I feel like im never being myself because im carrying this huge thing.But I also
like the feeling that I am accepted as "normal" by everyone because they don't know.
On the other hand I hate the fact that people only like me for who they think I am instead of me.I guess
I just feel lonely.I made some new friends lately,but I feel so stupid because I pretended to fancy some
guys that they were talking about.Now I just feel like a big fake liar.
At choir practice today there was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life.I was scared
to look at her incase anyone noticed me looking at her.I had to stand beside her and she smelled so good.
Her hair..everything was just perfect.She spoke to me and I was barely able to respond,im sure she thought
there was something wrong with me.
anyways thats my series of random thoughts.I guess I shall go get some sleep.

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Anonymous's picture

Thats the same way i feel aro

Thats the same way i feel around my friends..just fake. Hopefully it'll change....goood luck

A DREAM IS A WISH UR HEART MAKES!!!!!

Sunny Rays's picture

That sucks! I'm sorry that yo

That sucks! I'm sorry that you're having a bad day. I'm here if you want to talk about it. Hope you feel better soon!

When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.

booboo's picture

I felt the same way too....

I felt the same way too....

"you're not finish if you loose, but
you're finish if you quit"

etacarina42's picture

I know exactly how you feel...

I know exactly how you feel. I never feel whole around my friends. I feel like a fake and like I'm being dishonest not only with them but also with myself. I just wish that I could trust them that way. to come out to them. to not have to hide the fact that i also like girls as well as guys. i'm so tired of not being able to talk to anyone about how hot that girl that just passed by was so hot, like they do with guys in the hall or on the street. i'm sorry. i'm rambling. i have a history of insanely long comments, but anyway i feel your pain. Message me sometime if you ever feel like talking.:)