I feel so down today and im not even sure why exactly.I wish I could just be honest and tell people about
my sexuality.Its like I feel like im never being myself because im carrying this huge thing.But I also
like the feeling that I am accepted as "normal" by everyone because they don't know.
On the other hand I hate the fact that people only like me for who they think I am instead of me.I guess
I just feel lonely.I made some new friends lately,but I feel so stupid because I pretended to fancy some
guys that they were talking about.Now I just feel like a big fake liar.
At choir practice today there was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life.I was scared
to look at her incase anyone noticed me looking at her.I had to stand beside her and she smelled so good.
Her hair..everything was just perfect.She spoke to me and I was barely able to respond,im sure she thought
there was something wrong with me.
anyways thats my series of random thoughts.I guess I shall go get some sleep.