slut rampage!!!

lez and proud 14's picture

ok so a lot of people at my school do not belive that i am a lesbian becouse the year before i came out i went on some kind of slut rampage. i had to prove to myself that i was normal . i would constently tell myself im straight. but i needed more so i was just a flat out whore i made out with any gu that wanted to and i hated it but pretended not to so people would think i was straight . i was so scared that people could see right through me. i finally decided to be honest with myself and come out to myself before i did to any one else. the first person i told was my mom. then from there i just kinda spilled to anyone that would talk to me. but nno one understood they all thoughti was trying to cover for my slutty rep. so i kinda screwed myself over. o well it doesnt really matter since i am moving skewls and countys. please give your impoot . thank you

totaly pissed at myself

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the mouse that roared's picture

yeah

I know a lot of lesbians have done that when they were coming out to themselves. Gone with a lot of guys, I mean. Try not to be too hard on yourself about it. What they think of you doesn't really matter. You've done what you've done, and you had to work through it. People will forget about it eventually.

Are you hanging on to something useless just because you think it's beautiful?
--William Zinsser

Sunny Rays's picture

true

That's true, people do forget and move on. They are going to have to believe you eventually! They'll come around.

When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.

Duncan's picture

That sux. People are dumb lik

That sux. People are dumb like that. Even if they don't all figure it out, it'll be ok. At least now you aren't fooling around with guys when you really don't go that way. That's one way to look at it.