Bad conversation takes an even worse turn...

Inochi's picture

That conversation I had with Peyton didn't turn out so well. We had a part 2 last night, and let's just say the fact that I'm atheist came up. He comes from a family of Christians, that's fine with me, but his parents don't want him getting "involved" with someone that's not. And right about now, you could call us involved with eachother. Interesting story actually, but I'll save that for another time... Aaaanyways. We were both already upset about a few things both of us had said, so he finally tells me what's been bothering him so long with me. The fact that I'm atheist.. I'm not experienced with this whole thing, but usually it's somewhere along the lines of "It's not me, it's you.." Well in my case, it's the complete opposite... So he said those things last night to me, and then he calls me today, saying that he thought about it and he doesn't care anymore. I'm thinking... "Glad to know you realize that now, but ya could have figured it out about 3 years sooner..." Oh well, all is well right now. All I'm hoping for is for it to stay that way. I can't do any more fights with him, it's driving me up the wall...

On another note, I have to start community service either tomorrow or the day after. Lovely... Unfortunately, this isn't my choice, my school forces it on us to graduate. Sucky isn't it? Well, I get to work at my mom's work... Just joy for me... I don't mind where she works, but it's just the fact that'd I'd be in the same place as her all fucking day... Drives me insane to be around her for 10 minutes at home.. Anyways, apparently I'd be working with toddlers mostly, which me and my mom both know I can't stand kids that age. And what makes it worse is they're mentally challenged kids... I have nothing against them, don't get me wrong, I adore them, it's just sometimes, they can get on your nerves. So don't think I'm harsh for saying it's gonna drive me insane.. But, thankfully my little brother is on that side, so I'm used to it already. But still, not something I'm going to look forward to. Wish me luck, so I don't rip someone's head off.. Not just that but the guys my age there hit on me all the time.. But they don't realize it, cuz they're mentally challenged!! It drives me crazy, and I can't get onto them about it because they won't understand what I'm talking about... Sooo, I'm stuck...

Other than that, my life is lovely. Lately I haven't gotten into any more fights with anyone besides Peyton.. The only other thing that's happened recently was that girl Claire chewed my ass off for writing what I did about her. She says that I see it completely wrong and that I was the one to blame.. But you know what? I don't care anymore, she can think what she wants to, I gotta move on from all of that... She told me I can't speak to her ever again, which is just fine with me right now. It hurts, sure, but I gotta live with it, and I gotta move on or I'll never heal, right? Well, CSI is coming on in 15 min, that usually calms me down when I'm upset.. Peace till next time guys. Much love.

-Jen-

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milee13's picture

I had to do community service

I had to do community service to graduate too, they call it "A service learning school" and say we have a "community of caring." I "tutored" one of my neighbors...but really I just had him pay me to do a few assignments and then my german teacher signed off that I had been the coordinating director of the international dinner and gave me seven hours for doing nothing second semester. Colleges like community service stuff though....

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