ok i need help before i go over the edge and kill my god foresaking lie ass mother of mine. here the sitaution my mother is one of those control freaks right? she WIL not let you go any where with no one. ok like last week i wanted to stay over my boyfriend house (Which she still doesn't know he is my boyfreind and that i am gay.)i had to begg her to go cas first she didn't like my boyrfirend cas he is black, she doesn't trust no one who is black or anyone who isn't hispanic. then she told me what if something bad happens over there. (his mother is over there and they live in the most safest place in the god forsaking county) then she told me that if something happen to me that its on me and she didn't have no responablity for me (whatever bitch)after all that i finally got to go it took a hour and half to make her say yes.
ok then like today i was going to spend the day out right, well she calls and says we are going shoping for some cloths for my new internship (yeaaaaa). well i had to tell my boyfriend not to come. i was expecting to go shoping and i told her do i have to go today she said yeah cas they was going to be a sale, WELLLL i got home and guess waht "HER ASS LIED ABOU TTHE SALE AND GOING ANYWHERE JUST LIKE SHE LIED ABOUT GOING TO MY BAND CONCERT LIKE SHE LIEDS EVERY TIME" she wanted me to stay home and look at the bugs fly fucking by. i am so tired of this bullshit, i only have to wait one more year and i am out this hell hole but i don't think i can last one year. i swear i will kill her and tell the judge i did but by all that is holy i will be the happiest man alive, i will tell you that much. i really cant take it no more, i think i going to have a nervous breakdown "i should have some fun it my summer for crying out loud" does any one have some advice for me and how to deal with this bullshit.
P.S ummmmmmmm don't mind how i write, today just got to me so bad