I'm debating...

BryceW331's picture

Part of the reason that I joined Oasis a few days (a week, maybe?) ago was so that I could try to determine or explore my alternative sexuality. I've been coming to terms with the fact that I am gay for three years or so. I'm fairly sure that I am gay. I almost want to be gay, if that could make some sense. However, I don't know for sure, still. There has been little opportunity to even interact with gay people where I live, and therefore no opportunity to involve myself in a relationship. I have actually abstained from kissing anybody because I know that it would be wrong in my mind if I kissed a girl, and again, there aren't any gay men/boys near my town. I'm floundering in an overwhelming pool of thoughts about how I should come out to the rest of my family. I don't think that I could come out but to four (or less) of my friends. I'm just horribly confused and disoriented. I'm used to knowing almost everything that is going on with me, so I'm really stuck. I want to talk with my mom (she is one of two people that know that I'm gay), but she's phobic of me touching a computer with internet access. I want to tell her that Ive decided to sort all of this out, and to help I joined Oasis, but I don't know how she'll react. It'll be one of two ways: "You'll get raped!" or "Oh that's great!" And then I'd like to tell my brother next, because he has great insight and advice. I'm fairly sure that he would take it okay, and his girlfriend might even throw me a party. In summary, I'm confused and advice from all of you guys would be awesome! (-_-)


Sunny Rays's picture

Wow. That's a lot of things t

Wow. That's a lot of things to think about. Ok. Let's see. I think that it makes complete sense to want to be gay. I've wanted to be a lesbian forever. Maybe you could join a group to meet more gay people near you. Just try to relax, things will get better and much, much clearer as time goes on. I'd not come out to people unless you're sure of them so you may want to wait on that. Or you could take a leap of faith. Up to you. Good luck with whatever you choose to do.

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