Same stuff....

SilentBlue's picture

Hmmmm.....I guess I won't be coming out in high school! This year is almost over and I still don't feel ready to tell anyone. Right now though I don't feel the need. It's weird, when I'm busy and in a normal mood (not good or bad) I don't really feel like I need someone. I would still like to have someone, but its not like a gut-wrenching need that I usually feel. I also keep trying to convince myself that I might like guys more than I'm letting myself believe. I think "I could see myself with a boyfriend" but then I realize that whenever I think that way it's just that I can see myself going places and doing stuff with them, but with no romance. I don't know....

If everyone still acted the same as they did when we were kids I could probably see myself going out with a guy, but it seems like as they grow up they get harder and much more critical and care way too much about how "cool" they are...or something. Looking back on my childhood it seems like I did have alot more little crushes on girls than I did on guys, but I hung out with the guys more so those crushes were more apparent. But supposedly alot of the little boys I was friends with had crushes on me and I did know of some of them, but then again, I was little and I just wanted to play....
Ho hum, my own journal is boring me......I just keep repeating the same kind of stuff in all my journal entries hah!

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jeff's picture

hmm...

Be careful of "busy," though, a lot of people keep themselves intentionally busy by joining clubs, overextending themselves, signing up for everything so they ensure they don't have time for a relationship, especially if that would be a same-sex relationship.

I did that through all of high school and most of college, so very experienced in how messed up that can get.

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